The Turtle

 Man... talk about one interesting night. So its 12:45am and Christmas Eve, and I'm sitting here still wide awake as well as my other two sisters. Were all winding down after this turtle incident.

  See about 3 hours ago, a friend of ours, Alec, came over and dropped off Mica's early christmas gift....which happen to be a turtle. You see, Mica loves and I mean LOVES turtles. Back freshmen year when we were getting adjusted to living on our own away from everyone I went out a bought me and her matching turtle necklaces. And since then all she talks about is wanting to have a turtle. Now here at home we already have 3 cats and Mica barley takes care of those. Mom doesn't want her to have any other animals since she wouldn't really talk care of them. The same happened when we had our dogs Max and Ma'kyle. So any way back to the story. He came over and brought her the turtle and left. Only the turtle in a damn cardboard box with some food. Nothing else. Lucky, mom is at work right now and won't be off until 6am. So for the past 3 hours we've been trying to find someone to take the little guy before mom came home and take our souls. No way in HELL was I reliving the Christmas Eve of being kicked out the house. Nope. Luckly though, he didn't manage to find someone to take care of it for a few days which were now in the clear.. for now. lol

  Now back to looking for food... I want Coney Island Wings and Chili Cheese Fries... Mmmm...

Christmas Break

 Well my last grade came in today. I got all Bs! All my hard work and giving up my social life for this semester has paid off. I'm soo proud of myself. This only means.... one more semester and I'll be a graduate! YAY!!! I'm home free, sorta. I'm so proud of myself. Now I can actually relax and enjoy my break. I'm so happy.


    Currently I'm back home in Detroit, visiting family for a few days. Up until Sunday. Ever since I began college and living on my own, I realize that I never ever want to come back and live here. I mean don't get me wrong, I love my mother. With everything I am, its just their constant smoking and frequent drinking. Not abusive drinking to where she gets violent. Its just that I can't stand smoking and when I mean I can't stand it, I can't STAND it. I hate it. Its just a nasty, gross habit for one. You ruin your heath in the process, and the worst of all? The smell of smoke sticks everywhere. Every time I leave here all my clothes smell like smoke! >___< This is why I said only a few days.. if I can last that long.
 
  I only have two weeks off anyway, which is sooo weird. Usually we have 3 almost  a month off. But still what's the point of complaining?  I still have some days off, to actually be lazy and cuddle with my hubby and catch up on our shows, when I get back home.

 I guess thats enough for now.  Will write soon once again. Happy Holidays! ^__^

Anchor by Mindy Gledhill

Study Break

      One more week til I done! Oh man.. Stressed out again. I usually say that every semester, but this one takes the cake! But its so worth it. All interesting classes... and hard as shit. I think in this semester I wrote more papers than I have in my whole college career. XD Lets just hope I learned something in built up my skills.

  Can't wait til Christmas break. Mostly because I can sleep in all I want! Ugh, the semester was a real tough one, but a good one. I think I finally kicked that lazy characteristic to the curb....at least right now for that matter...at least until December 16th, lol.

 Currently at the Dude on North campus. I've always loved this place. Quiet and I can always seem to get my work done. Scratch that, I ALWAYS get my work done when I'm here. Funny how I only come here durning mid-terms and finals. I'm still a lazy student. I just want these next couple of days to past by so I can be lazy. One more term to go WOOT!!!

          For once though I did go home (In which I wasn't forced to). This past weekend. It was nice, really nice and exactly what I needed. I stayed in Friday night with mom and my twin and went out Saturday night with a few friends in celebration of my friend, Kyle, finally turning 21. I got to see some good friends I haven't seen in a while, even my boo Ashlei was there.  It was alot of fun. We all went to club Lunas. My first time there. Nice place, great music, cheap yet pretty strong and tasty drinks. Stayed there for about 3 hours max, drinking, dancing and meeting new people. We didn't get home til around 2:30am, talked to Chris til 3am and finally went to sleep....for only 3 hours. I had to get up that morning to go grocery shopping with my mom for my apartment. Turns out not only did I wake up sleepy as hell still, but with a hangover too. I had given up drinking earlier this year due to the way and how much I was drinking and how it was affecting me and my relationship with Chris. I only had 3 sex on the beaches and a long island, thank you again Martell for that one! I forgotten that alcohol tolerance was low, super low. It was weird though. I was hungover not because I was drunk the night before, but because of being tipsy. Went home after shopping and literally slept all day. It was nice.

   It was good to take a mini-break. Now back on my grind.

Ta-ta

I love my bed

  A nice Thanksgiving this year. Went and took rounds at a few family members houses, gotta stock up on that food. All day today was a pretty lazy one. I spent the whole morning in bed, something that I haven't done in a long time. It was nice regardless of it being Black Friday today. I usually don't do the whole shopping thing. I learn to shop for things that I need.

  Only 3 more weeks of this semester til winter break. I can't believe it. One more semester and I'm done which means only a few more months and I'm out of this damn state. The more I think about it, the more I get excited yet get nervous.

  Alot of stuff on my mind right now. Main thoughts? School, fiances and certain people.

School: I seem to be getting it down pack, at least I believe so. Actually it would seem that I am since I found out I was a semester ahead and found out I could graduate this semester instead of waiting til winter term. Since everything I plan on doing begins in June, I decided to stay the extra term. This school year was a free year in terms of paying for tuition and I still need to save up for my big move to California as well as I want to graduate with all my friends. So next semester its pretty much a free for all when it comes to classes. Yay me. I guess I can say I kinda deserved it, this wasn't an easy school to go to and I'm very proud that I've made it because there were times when I thought I wasn't.

Money: Its a pretty tight semester in terms of that. Thanks to some mis-haps that happened over the summer, I owe a bit of money to my God-father and Grandmother. Their not hounding me or anything, but it would be nice to have everything that I owe paid off before my big leave. I know that it will only get worst when I move. Due to the stressful semester this term, I can't work the hours that I want to which is why I'm not making so much. Its not that bad though. I'm surviving and paying the bills that I do owe, but still its not soo much to where I can truly relax and do things during the weekend. But hey, its better than nothing.

People: Not too many people I focus on now a days. Just my close friends and family members and my fiancée. I still can't believe that I'm engaged, but I never been happier. Been a little over a month now since it happened. (It happened on October 19th, the day before my birthday). It will more than likely be a long engagement since we have to establish ourselves, and besides I don't want to rush. Better to plan slowly and with time so that way when the time does come it'll be a wonderful event and celebration.

 That pretty much sums up what's been going on with me since my last entry. Nothing too exciting in a sense. I'm pretty sure once I move to L.A my entires will be become more and more interesting. I plan on attending an art school there, since thats now where my interest lies. Don't get me wrong, I love Asian studies and Japanese and everything that I've learned so far, but right now? I want to pursue art a bit more.  That seems where my passion and deep interests lies. Did I mention that my twin sister will also be moving with me? I'm happy about it too, I mean I know I'll be alright with Chris, but its nice to know that I'll have my sister there with me so I won't be too lonely since when thinking about it, I'll be leaving everything I know to go to a whole new location, new people, new life. But I'm soo ready to take the leap. My mom is excited for as well as other friends and family members.

 I guess this is good for now. I really need to start writing more on this.

 Ja

-sigh-

    Oh man, things have been...hard. So damn hard. I'm stressing out soo much. This is just not my semester, I just want to be, free. Take a break and be done. I can't wait til winter break to be here. Then again, its always like this during the fall. We have about a few more weeks til winter break. Can't wait either.
 
   On a good note: I'm engaged now. :) Yup, I can't believe it, but I'm happy.


Thats all I got to say right now. Ta
 

Compromise

 Been a minute, well awhile since my last entry. Currently I am in L.A visiting my fiancee before my last year of school begins. Since I really have nothing to do, and all I've been doing is watching tv I figured I'd write out what I'm feeling. This summer was I guess.. plain in a way. I took spring classes then worked for the summer term, saving money for my trip out here. I admit, I've had my ups and downs and still am.

  My first couple of days out here weren't so bad, I got to spend some time with Chris, who I haven't seen since April. It felt so good to be in his arms agin too...to feel his lips. Every time I'm near him I fall more and more in love with him..

 I got to see my first actor. Keith David, it was pretty cool. I keep forgetting that even though their stars, their still people too. Still.. it was cool to see him in person. I've seen 3 movies since I've been out here. "Planet of the Apes", "Crazy, Stupid Love" and "Horrible Bosses". All of them pretty good. I got to see some new places and try some new food. I know the more I come out here, the more and more I love the food. So much better than what I have back at home.

  Other than that, I've mostly been indoors, occasionally going out to get food, but not so much since I'm trying to save this money...

  -Sigh- I feel really lonely out here right now. The little brat in me wants to be mad since this is my vacation and he's working, but the more grown up part of me knows that (1) I can't always get my way (2) He needs the job (3) thats just life. I can't let my negative thoughts get the best of me and ruin the time I do have with him right now. I guess alot is getting to me right now. I have one more year of school then I'm out. I still feel as though idk what I want to do. I know I want to do art, but.. idk. I feel like I'm in limbo right now. I still feel lost, but I'm gonna get through it as best as I can.

Spring Break

 Its about Mid-week into my spring break and I'm enjoying myself to the max. I'm here in California visiting my love. Its as though I'm in another world. Even though I've been here since Saturday night, it still seems so surreal. The weather is amazing (one of things I will miss) and the sights are breath taking. But the most amazing thing of all? Is being here to see my love. The time spent here with him is amazing. I will hate it so much when Its time for me to go. I wish I was done with school now so I could move here and start me life with him now. But patience is virtue.  Only one more year of school then I can move here.

   I'm only writing so much right now. Sitting here relaxing and enjoying myself. I'll write more later.

Drained..

  Monday, in my 2nd class for the day (out of 3) and I am no way attentive today. I'm way too out of it. I got horrible sleep last night thanks to stupid cramps.. I swear, women should be given some sort of medal for what we go through. This crap really sucks. I wish men sometimes were able to experience what its like to have a period, then maybe then would understand us a little bit. I wish it was the weekend already. All I want to do is sleep. I should stop complaining, it seems to be the only thing I do now a days. No, stop. Gotta stop talking to myself down like that.

  I'm not even paying attention in this class. Well I kinda am, the material is somewhat interesting but not really. One more class then work then a nap followed by dinner then studying and homework then, and I'm hoping its not too when I do this, sleep, but not until I talk to my baby. All I can think about right now is my warm bed thats missing me right now. That and laying next to my boo all nice and warm. Please let these next three weeks past. It would be very nice to be on break right now and away from this damn state and stupid snow.

  Let this week go by fast.

Nothing But Time.

   So its been a few weeks since my last entry. School has started back up since then as well as work. I like this semester; Good schedule, working more hours. Only one more year of this and I graduate. I still can't believe how time has passed so fast and still I have a long road ahead of me. Some things in my life has changed, many friends still here, made new ones, lost old ones, my appearance as well as my preconception of thinking. Things are going smoothly.. yet. I feel as though I'm in a bit of a depression...

I only have a few more weeks until I see him again. Yet, this really sucks. I mean I knew what I was getting myself into when I knew I wanted to be with him.. but ugh! Long distance relationships are very hard. Its especially hard with the fact that I'm the kind of person who needs that physical affection and connection often. And not being able to get that with him being so far away really sucks. Skype and phone conversations help a bit, but it doesn't compare to him actually having his arms around me and feeling bliss in his warm embrace... or feeling those warm, soft lips upon mine... those big mysterious eyes staring at me... feeling how bad he wants me with that stare of his.... I don't care how corny or how silly this makes me looks. I rather look like a fool knowing that I'm with you than suffer with not being with you at all.

  Ugh... only a few more weeks. Its funny when I think about it. It takes forever for the time for me to see you to come, yet it flies by when I'm with you. Lol, I guess it can't be helped though huh? I just gotta get through this. I gotta survive this. I know it will be long and we'll argue and fight, but that's what I'm willing to go through to make this work and to be with you. I'm in love with you. Always and forever.