Sunday, January 23, 2011

Nothing But Time.

   So its been a few weeks since my last entry. School has started back up since then as well as work. I like this semester; Good schedule, working more hours. Only one more year of this and I graduate. I still can't believe how time has passed so fast and still I have a long road ahead of me. Some things in my life has changed, many friends still here, made new ones, lost old ones, my appearance as well as my preconception of thinking. Things are going smoothly.. yet. I feel as though I'm in a bit of a depression...

I only have a few more weeks until I see him again. Yet, this really sucks. I mean I knew what I was getting myself into when I knew I wanted to be with him.. but ugh! Long distance relationships are very hard. Its especially hard with the fact that I'm the kind of person who needs that physical affection and connection often. And not being able to get that with him being so far away really sucks. Skype and phone conversations help a bit, but it doesn't compare to him actually having his arms around me and feeling bliss in his warm embrace... or feeling those warm, soft lips upon mine... those big mysterious eyes staring at me... feeling how bad he wants me with that stare of his.... I don't care how corny or how silly this makes me looks. I rather look like a fool knowing that I'm with you than suffer with not being with you at all.

  Ugh... only a few more weeks. Its funny when I think about it. It takes forever for the time for me to see you to come, yet it flies by when I'm with you. Lol, I guess it can't be helped though huh? I just gotta get through this. I gotta survive this. I know it will be long and we'll argue and fight, but that's what I'm willing to go through to make this work and to be with you. I'm in love with you. Always and forever.